I know,I know.WHY DO I ALWAYS JUMP INTO THE TREND BANDWAGON? Whatever happened to non-comformity and suppresion of individualism?

but it's no big deal really.I realise that most of the time im on blogger it pains me to come up with lengthy things to talk about and when I post pictures they are a hassle coz they need to follow the template and size and everything which makes things ugly.So I am keeping this blog too - for when I feel like I need to blogspot.

TUMBLR

oh btw,I am not surviving well without mama.

Evil,witty and devious.Damon is my favourite Salvatore brother.He is the epitome of wicked funny.The thing about Damon is that we see something new about him,a new level of his genius self in every episode.He is unpredictable to a tee. Just when you stereotype him to be this evil,inhumane bloodsucking monster he shows this tinge of emotion,a shade of human desperation and you go "OHMYFREAKING GOD,DAMON!" It is for these moments that I stalk torrent sites every Friday for the latest episodes of Vampire Diaries. AND his sense of sardonic humour makes everything he says ultimate win!

I used to hate the other Grey in the earlier seasons.I used to think that she tried to hard and should just chillax but I really like her in season 6.Mostly because she is adorable and her air time with Mark the manslut Sloan is really cute. I love Mark-Lexie.Maybe because Meredith/Ellen Pompeo is pregnant and not getting a lot of air time,Lexie's the shining Grey now.

Lexie:I wore a diaper yesterday, yes - and I will wear one today. If it helps Dr. Shepherd get through the surgery, I will wear a diaper. My diaper is awesome. My diaper is hard-core. You wish you had the balls to wear my diaper. I'm gonna wear it, and I'm gonna wear it with pride. And if I have to pee in it? Oh, I'll pee. Because I am a surgeon. This is America. And I will do what needs to be done. So you can kiss my hard-core, diaper wearing ass.

DIAPER WEARING SURGEONS- CANNOT GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS.Cristina Yang is still my favourite GA character though.She's kickass and has genius little hands.

WHY THE HELL WONT YOU LOVE MARC? He's the best thing on ugly betty imo. They should get him a boyf soon.(Keith-Marc in season 2-3 was awesome!) Marc the gay bitch is rad but Marc's occasional nice moments are way better.Like when he prep talks Justin with the 'if they give you shit just remember you are way smarter and funnier than them'-kinda thing.SQUEALS.like totally.

When I first started this entry the tittle was 'Let it rain' and I was in the middle of a cryptic rant about how f-ed up the world is.However,I have had a sudden burst of optimism and thus the tittle of this entry has been changed to 'Clarity' and I will now talk about the happy things in life. (The things John Mayer can do. I mean,the happy John Mayer during Heavier Things before Jessica Simpson screwed with his genius.)

I guess the easiest and the escapist way is to list the events thagt have been happenning and since I am both lazy and prefer my made-up fantasies to reality anyday;here is a big fat list.

1. LTC WAS COOOLZ. I say that with the 'Z'! I loved that the camp treated us like adults and didnt make us do camp drills that were unecessary and stupid. (Hello YT.) I love my group 6 cents/sense and all the amaazing people I've made friends with. I loved that I could see myself as Josh Harnett in Pearl Habour when we played with laser guns.Of course,I died in battle but so did Ken Watanabe in Letters to Iwojima.SO WE COOLZ. Asyraf killed me a lot of times. Screw you,biatch. (ASH K FTW)
2. Ruohan's birthday was on wednesday and we celebrated it at Eighteen Chefs with the huamin quintet. (I have decided to name ourselves this) Wu Ruohan,you know i love you and probably have to suffer being your friend for the rest of my life but you know what? I think I will enjoy being your friend -- even if this means you call me at 12 am saying "HELLO! HELLO! I AM AT YOUR GATE NOW. OPEN! I WANT TO RAID YOUR FRIDGE!"
3. I went back to YT for a tiny while for Drama camp. Its unbelivable how old I felt. It was good to see the club still doing so great.That shit people say about leaving behind something and seeing it grow into something beautiful is true. I feel freaking proud of my juniors and holy crap, all the sec1s are so tiny.OLD.OLD.OLD.
   
4. Dreams have been good to me these nights.Except the one I had 2 days ago where two huge psychopaths were chasing after me in those malaysian neighbourhoods with giant houses and I decided to hide in a chinese girl's cupboard. I KNOW RIGHT. I woke up sweating and my hands were burning. WHY DO ALL MY NIGHTMARES INVOLVE MALAYSIA?! Anyways,GOOD DREAMS. The first night of camp I dreamt of Captain Jack Sparrow -- he was talking to me about some chocolate he was endorsing. Then a group of reporters swarmed him and I took a step back. I DID NOT JUMP ON HIM. I was composed and calm. (now that I think about it,WHY DID I NOT JUMP ON HIM?)Johnny Depp dreams are like gems in a haystack.Rare and oh so worth it.
5. We've started on Richard III for Literature.I am freaking thrilled! SHAKESPEARE,YOU SPEAK THE VOLUMES OF MY SOUL.but more than that,I love all this olden england conspiracies. Killing your family members to get what you want - check. So evil that even his body is disfigured - check. ERIC BANA AS YOUR TEACHER'S SCHOOLMATE - CHECK!
   
6. Been catching up on Grey's Anatomy and Ugly Betty and constantly watching Vampire Diaries but I will update seperately on this. I LOVE TV SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS.

Officially now,PW is over.We handed in the freshly paginated black file that contained all the demons of PW and even took a picture with it (Ms Wong's Idea) I had hoped when we handed it in it will be like getting an exorcism, with all the demons and ghouls freed from sitting on my shoulders, but it was strangely empty. It was like 'hmm..when is this exorcism going to start?' BUT THE POINT IS - it is over and we have come out of this hell with limbs attached (Although,our brains might be scarred from research for the rest of our lives)

IKEA today was a whole lotta fun. 'If I had a child,I would totally make him an IKEA kid.' this was the thought on everybody's mind as we glided across the children section of IKEA.Everything in IKEA is so pretty and I envision my future house to be like one of the showhouses. DO THEY HAVE IKEA IN KOREA? PAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Today,is also my mom's birthday.So I bought her a plant and oven miffs with an apron.I know,I wished I could get her something less domestic but I wanted to get her things she could actually use.It didnt matter anyways,because she will love any present I give. (CONSIDERING,my dad didnt get her anything.) Its times like these I wished I was better to my mother.She doesnt deserve the nonsense I give her ): Happy Birthday Ma.

Tomorrow is LTC. I am totally not in the mood for camp but I will psych myself up somehow. Urgh,packing. I used to love packing for trips or camps but not anymore. Camp equipment/things I need are sprawled all over the house and I will have to look for them like a freaking mouse scurrying for cheese. I hate this, because I will have to go up and down the stairs a lot.(This is one of the major vices of my house.Another vice would be that my dad says that behind the estate is the seletar resevoir so if it floods,we will die first) Anyways, I have no idea what they are making us do for LTC. I hope they dont make us do stupid things like 'fire drill!' in the middle of the night and make us sleep with our shoes on. Because that will not be fun.

OHOHOHOH.I am currently listening to youngbae's Wedding Dress and officially conclude that everything youngbae sings or touches turns into gold and I will bow down to his feet in pure admiration. I love you,youngbae.

You know,I believe there is no coincidence,just fate - God giving fate. Like today, I was freely walking around thinking I would buy myself anything I felt like--without any care in the world and without thinking what buying things would do to my bank account.I walked around with a spring in my step,knowing that if I would buy myself an SD card if I saw one or a really pretty but useless thing just because I had my atm card in my wallet. Yeap, then I lost my wallet. JUST.LIKE.THAT. of course,panic ensued. Normally,one of the general office attendants would call and say "Hello,is this Suhaidah? Did you realise you lost your wallet?" But no. Not this time. Because I lost it amidst the evening crowd in Tampines (just one of Tampines' few vices) and whoever picked it up -- is 20 dollars richer,and now has 10% off Pastamania,Popular and Dorothy Perkins.

Bye bye my hideous momo bear wallet.

Thank god though,my parents are way cool about this.I guess my sad looking pityful face when i came back home helped. Double thanks that I didnt lose my iphone though.The last time that happened, i freaking mourned like when George O Malley died in Grey's Anatomy. (AND BELIEVE ME- THAT WAS A WHOLE LOTTA MOURNING.)

So anyways,enough of mourning. We accept and move on. I love that I always mourn when inanimate objects are lost or die but never seem to mourn properly when animate objects do. Is this too weird?

The past few days have been filled with : Dancing or what I try to do when i move my limbs and body. Ranice did the choreo so well but then I do it and everything just turns into comic relief,I swear. BUT IT IS OKAY. Because I am cool even if I am comic relief and its for Atlas! SO I WILL DO IT (with as much determination as Callie Torres had when she had her bitchfest in front of the Chief) More than being comic relief, dancing is kinda fun. I kinda like it.
(BUT THIS DOESNT MAKE ME TRYING TO DANCE LESS FUNNIER ): )

Also,the past PW-FREE days have been filled with Ugly Betty,Vampire Diaries,Grey's Anatomy (hence the references) and James Morrison's soulful voice. ( SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL !) I swear, everything's way better these days. It's like the writers of american tv got a brain makeover. Ugly Betty is way better with Matt Hartley,Vampire Diaries is just effing WIN and Grey's Anatomy is just pure emotional crack(the best kind!) I've even been watching a lot of CSI on tv too. There are a lot of gems on tv right now. I love G's to Gents.fofucking'sho.

On the fangirl front, I am recently loving FT Triple,Lee Jaejin,BEAST (MINUS THE BIG BANG REJECT COZ I REALLY CANNOT LIKE HIM NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY), Joon Hyung from Beast,Doojoon and Lyn. I love Lyn's new mini album. Its win,really. Havent heard or watched any of 2pm's new stuff but I have no motivation to. Meh,I'll look when I feel like it.

Yay! This is the first time in a few days that I have been able to write an entire blog post.
I AM NOT BORING ANYMORE. HALLELUJAH.

This has been on repeat since i finished my last entry about an hour ago. Yeap,on freaking loop.
Dumbfoundead is fawesome. (NOT KIDDING.) i love this laid-back aura that he has its so chill and lazy in the very best way. Like x 203903902. (WATCH!)

SU. I go to school and get what everybody says is a 'holistic education'.I clean my room only after my mom nags at me for at least a week or when i feel like it I like korean music and korean pop culture and am kind of a fangirl. I love movies with Johnny Depp and all the four Hughs (Hugh Jackman,Hugh Laurie,Hugh Dancy and Hugh Grant). I have 29403249032 favourite songs.

I want to be
revolutionary.


I think the mafia is incredibly cool. I have a soft spot for geniuses. I want to be eloquent in at least 4 languages before i die.I think asians are going to take over the world one day. Tablo of Epik High and Gaeko from Dynamic Duo are the musical geniuses of my heart.I dont really know what i want to do or be when i grow up,but currently im thinking of becoming a female rapper. I grow weak at the sight of cheap pasar malam merchandise. I love DAISO $2 and Tesco and really nice sneakers.

I know,I know.WHY DO I ALWAYS JUMP INTO THE TREND BANDWAGON? Whatever happened to non-comformity and suppresion of individualism?

but it's no big deal really.I realise that most of the time im on blogger it pains me to come up with lengthy things to talk about and when I post pictures they are a hassle coz they need to follow the template and size and everything which makes things ugly.So I am keeping this blog too - for when I feel like I need to blogspot.

TUMBLR

oh btw,I am not surviving well without mama.

Evil,witty and devious.Damon is my favourite Salvatore brother.He is the epitome of wicked funny.The thing about Damon is that we see something new about him,a new level of his genius self in every episode.He is unpredictable to a tee. Just when you stereotype him to be this evil,inhumane bloodsucking monster he shows this tinge of emotion,a shade of human desperation and you go "OHMYFREAKING GOD,DAMON!" It is for these moments that I stalk torrent sites every Friday for the latest episodes of Vampire Diaries. AND his sense of sardonic humour makes everything he says ultimate win!

I used to hate the other Grey in the earlier seasons.I used to think that she tried to hard and should just chillax but I really like her in season 6.Mostly because she is adorable and her air time with Mark the manslut Sloan is really cute. I love Mark-Lexie.Maybe because Meredith/Ellen Pompeo is pregnant and not getting a lot of air time,Lexie's the shining Grey now.

Lexie:I wore a diaper yesterday, yes - and I will wear one today. If it helps Dr. Shepherd get through the surgery, I will wear a diaper. My diaper is awesome. My diaper is hard-core. You wish you had the balls to wear my diaper. I'm gonna wear it, and I'm gonna wear it with pride. And if I have to pee in it? Oh, I'll pee. Because I am a surgeon. This is America. And I will do what needs to be done. So you can kiss my hard-core, diaper wearing ass.

DIAPER WEARING SURGEONS- CANNOT GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS.Cristina Yang is still my favourite GA character though.She's kickass and has genius little hands.

WHY THE HELL WONT YOU LOVE MARC? He's the best thing on ugly betty imo. They should get him a boyf soon.(Keith-Marc in season 2-3 was awesome!) Marc the gay bitch is rad but Marc's occasional nice moments are way better.Like when he prep talks Justin with the 'if they give you shit just remember you are way smarter and funnier than them'-kinda thing.SQUEALS.like totally.

When I first started this entry the tittle was 'Let it rain' and I was in the middle of a cryptic rant about how f-ed up the world is.However,I have had a sudden burst of optimism and thus the tittle of this entry has been changed to 'Clarity' and I will now talk about the happy things in life. (The things John Mayer can do. I mean,the happy John Mayer during Heavier Things before Jessica Simpson screwed with his genius.)

I guess the easiest and the escapist way is to list the events thagt have been happenning and since I am both lazy and prefer my made-up fantasies to reality anyday;here is a big fat list.

1. LTC WAS COOOLZ. I say that with the 'Z'! I loved that the camp treated us like adults and didnt make us do camp drills that were unecessary and stupid. (Hello YT.) I love my group 6 cents/sense and all the amaazing people I've made friends with. I loved that I could see myself as Josh Harnett in Pearl Habour when we played with laser guns.Of course,I died in battle but so did Ken Watanabe in Letters to Iwojima.SO WE COOLZ. Asyraf killed me a lot of times. Screw you,biatch. (ASH K FTW)
2. Ruohan's birthday was on wednesday and we celebrated it at Eighteen Chefs with the huamin quintet. (I have decided to name ourselves this) Wu Ruohan,you know i love you and probably have to suffer being your friend for the rest of my life but you know what? I think I will enjoy being your friend -- even if this means you call me at 12 am saying "HELLO! HELLO! I AM AT YOUR GATE NOW. OPEN! I WANT TO RAID YOUR FRIDGE!"
3. I went back to YT for a tiny while for Drama camp. Its unbelivable how old I felt. It was good to see the club still doing so great.That shit people say about leaving behind something and seeing it grow into something beautiful is true. I feel freaking proud of my juniors and holy crap, all the sec1s are so tiny.OLD.OLD.OLD.
   
4. Dreams have been good to me these nights.Except the one I had 2 days ago where two huge psychopaths were chasing after me in those malaysian neighbourhoods with giant houses and I decided to hide in a chinese girl's cupboard. I KNOW RIGHT. I woke up sweating and my hands were burning. WHY DO ALL MY NIGHTMARES INVOLVE MALAYSIA?! Anyways,GOOD DREAMS. The first night of camp I dreamt of Captain Jack Sparrow -- he was talking to me about some chocolate he was endorsing. Then a group of reporters swarmed him and I took a step back. I DID NOT JUMP ON HIM. I was composed and calm. (now that I think about it,WHY DID I NOT JUMP ON HIM?)Johnny Depp dreams are like gems in a haystack.Rare and oh so worth it.
5. We've started on Richard III for Literature.I am freaking thrilled! SHAKESPEARE,YOU SPEAK THE VOLUMES OF MY SOUL.but more than that,I love all this olden england conspiracies. Killing your family members to get what you want - check. So evil that even his body is disfigured - check. ERIC BANA AS YOUR TEACHER'S SCHOOLMATE - CHECK!
   
6. Been catching up on Grey's Anatomy and Ugly Betty and constantly watching Vampire Diaries but I will update seperately on this. I LOVE TV SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS.

Officially now,PW is over.We handed in the freshly paginated black file that contained all the demons of PW and even took a picture with it (Ms Wong's Idea) I had hoped when we handed it in it will be like getting an exorcism, with all the demons and ghouls freed from sitting on my shoulders, but it was strangely empty. It was like 'hmm..when is this exorcism going to start?' BUT THE POINT IS - it is over and we have come out of this hell with limbs attached (Although,our brains might be scarred from research for the rest of our lives)

IKEA today was a whole lotta fun. 'If I had a child,I would totally make him an IKEA kid.' this was the thought on everybody's mind as we glided across the children section of IKEA.Everything in IKEA is so pretty and I envision my future house to be like one of the showhouses. DO THEY HAVE IKEA IN KOREA? PAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Today,is also my mom's birthday.So I bought her a plant and oven miffs with an apron.I know,I wished I could get her something less domestic but I wanted to get her things she could actually use.It didnt matter anyways,because she will love any present I give. (CONSIDERING,my dad didnt get her anything.) Its times like these I wished I was better to my mother.She doesnt deserve the nonsense I give her ): Happy Birthday Ma.

Tomorrow is LTC. I am totally not in the mood for camp but I will psych myself up somehow. Urgh,packing. I used to love packing for trips or camps but not anymore. Camp equipment/things I need are sprawled all over the house and I will have to look for them like a freaking mouse scurrying for cheese. I hate this, because I will have to go up and down the stairs a lot.(This is one of the major vices of my house.Another vice would be that my dad says that behind the estate is the seletar resevoir so if it floods,we will die first) Anyways, I have no idea what they are making us do for LTC. I hope they dont make us do stupid things like 'fire drill!' in the middle of the night and make us sleep with our shoes on. Because that will not be fun.

OHOHOHOH.I am currently listening to youngbae's Wedding Dress and officially conclude that everything youngbae sings or touches turns into gold and I will bow down to his feet in pure admiration. I love you,youngbae.

You know,I believe there is no coincidence,just fate - God giving fate. Like today, I was freely walking around thinking I would buy myself anything I felt like--without any care in the world and without thinking what buying things would do to my bank account.I walked around with a spring in my step,knowing that if I would buy myself an SD card if I saw one or a really pretty but useless thing just because I had my atm card in my wallet. Yeap, then I lost my wallet. JUST.LIKE.THAT. of course,panic ensued. Normally,one of the general office attendants would call and say "Hello,is this Suhaidah? Did you realise you lost your wallet?" But no. Not this time. Because I lost it amidst the evening crowd in Tampines (just one of Tampines' few vices) and whoever picked it up -- is 20 dollars richer,and now has 10% off Pastamania,Popular and Dorothy Perkins.

Bye bye my hideous momo bear wallet.

Thank god though,my parents are way cool about this.I guess my sad looking pityful face when i came back home helped. Double thanks that I didnt lose my iphone though.The last time that happened, i freaking mourned like when George O Malley died in Grey's Anatomy. (AND BELIEVE ME- THAT WAS A WHOLE LOTTA MOURNING.)

So anyways,enough of mourning. We accept and move on. I love that I always mourn when inanimate objects are lost or die but never seem to mourn properly when animate objects do. Is this too weird?

The past few days have been filled with : Dancing or what I try to do when i move my limbs and body. Ranice did the choreo so well but then I do it and everything just turns into comic relief,I swear. BUT IT IS OKAY. Because I am cool even if I am comic relief and its for Atlas! SO I WILL DO IT (with as much determination as Callie Torres had when she had her bitchfest in front of the Chief) More than being comic relief, dancing is kinda fun. I kinda like it.
(BUT THIS DOESNT MAKE ME TRYING TO DANCE LESS FUNNIER ): )

Also,the past PW-FREE days have been filled with Ugly Betty,Vampire Diaries,Grey's Anatomy (hence the references) and James Morrison's soulful voice. ( SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL !) I swear, everything's way better these days. It's like the writers of american tv got a brain makeover. Ugly Betty is way better with Matt Hartley,Vampire Diaries is just effing WIN and Grey's Anatomy is just pure emotional crack(the best kind!) I've even been watching a lot of CSI on tv too. There are a lot of gems on tv right now. I love G's to Gents.fofucking'sho.

On the fangirl front, I am recently loving FT Triple,Lee Jaejin,BEAST (MINUS THE BIG BANG REJECT COZ I REALLY CANNOT LIKE HIM NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY), Joon Hyung from Beast,Doojoon and Lyn. I love Lyn's new mini album. Its win,really. Havent heard or watched any of 2pm's new stuff but I have no motivation to. Meh,I'll look when I feel like it.

Yay! This is the first time in a few days that I have been able to write an entire blog post.
I AM NOT BORING ANYMORE. HALLELUJAH.

This has been on repeat since i finished my last entry about an hour ago. Yeap,on freaking loop.
Dumbfoundead is fawesome. (NOT KIDDING.) i love this laid-back aura that he has its so chill and lazy in the very best way. Like x 203903902. (WATCH!)

Watching :
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