isnt it interesting there are some dreams you'll just remember for a long time?Ironically,the dreams that you want to remember you dont,instead you only remember the ones that are absolutely and utterly -weird.

like how i can still remember vividly i dreamt that i broke my spine because an obese caucasion woman flipped me upside down and threw me to the ground. and the worse thing is,nobody cared that i broke my spine and left me on the floor to rot for 5 days. After 5 days my mother came to get me and i asked her ''mama,why did you leave me to rot for 5 days with a broken spine??'' but she didnt say anything but merely wheeled me away in this wheelchair like thing and brought me home in a lorry.

WHAT DOES THIS ALL MEAN?!
i dont get enough love in dreams.
the R.E.M world hates me D:

the shizz;

• my laptop is still in a coma.it off's without reason and i am sad and restless. 우리 아기 ㅠㅠ.
• Im done with LOA,i dont even know why i was on LOA since indon only has 2 known cases.but who cares since its mitigation stage now and it doesnt matter where you go.
  ITS FREAKING EVERYWHERE,KIDS!
• Lit is left on the mye list and i dont deserve to be relieved coz i didnt study enough to feel any relief.
• school is a scary place now. the meridian paranoia fills the already stiffling pasir ris air.
• dae solo minialbum this year baby!
• i have a very scary urge to follow papa to bangkok this long weekend.
• my need for new sneakers is so high right now,i could make up the demand for the entire sneaker market.
• jo kwon is love. and i want to devote a shrine to him. it will be named 'the hall of holy-cow-how-can-someone-be-so-hot-and-manly-but-so-girly-at-the-same-time'

billie jean is not his lover,okay!
& the boy is freaking not his son,so stop bothering the poor man.

at this moment i feel..

D: at my youtube to mp3 converter which is not working
T_T at the newly released Taecyeon mnet scandal photos of taec&his fake but pretty girlfriend.
X_X when i look at the time...
Z_Z when i realise what time i need to be awake later
!@#$%^ coz i really dont like the clothes 2pm are wearing for 니가 밈다.
@_@ at taecyeon's super shiny leather pants and very cheap-looking pasar malam shades.
:] because im finally going on a holiday after so long
(no,actually i feel :DDD because im going on a holiday after so long.)
^_^ because ill get to go sneaker shopping and get myself some well deserved dunks.(hellyeah!)
:D/D: for all the good/yummy but bad for wellness indo food that ill get to eat.
B) at all the new apps i have on my itouch
o_o at how im gonna complete revising when i come back.
TTT_TTT because now ive reminded myself of the whole pile of studying i have YET to do.
*saddest emoticon you've ever seen* because i dont want to fail Mid-years.
-___-cause i realise the likeliness of impending failure.



urgh. sicksicksick.

1. I went for the free firework's show 'Crackers' yesterday.Fyi,the FIREWORKS show was held at YISHUN. i dont know why they had it at yishun but still,GO YISHUN! (all you tamp/bedok/pasirris people beware. yishun'stimetorisemahomies!) The show was rad. half the time i was busy consoling my little brother who was scared out of his witz.
2. Oh speaking of him,ITS HIS BIRTHDAY TODAY! happy birthday my cute but temperamental little brother.May you not break too many hearts when you grow up.As it is,too many little girls love you already.
3. Ruohan & Yuding aka the two people who co-live in my house crashed again yesterday.We just basically slacked,made a really unhealthy 1am meal out of fries,chicken fingers and pandan mantou,watched global warning concert again (aww,miss bigbang D:) then was too lazy to come to my room to sleep so we slept sprawled on the Lsofa and the floor of the basement like drunkards without a home.
4. 2NE1 WON MUTIZEN ON INKI TODAY. ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG! & they've only debuted.geez! i am fricking psyched! there's also a lot of YG FAMILY love going on. I love CL. she is fierce.
5. i need to rant. 왜 MNET 왜왜왜?! why do you have to choose TAEC to be on mnet scandal.I was fine when khun did it because he's NOT taec. but srsly mnet,NOW you've crossed the line. & all the k-netizens are on FIRE (hahah) because of khun's make-believe girlfriend and attacking her and what not. I say let's go attack the PD's of mnet for creating such an insane show instead. 아ㅏㅏㅏㅏㅏ,우리 옥캣. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
6. okay,im kidding. im not a butthurt fangirl who wants to attack PD's or fake girlfriends.I am a peaceful fangirl who loves everybody and wishes to live on a mountain where there are ponies,unicorns,rainbows and cotton candy.
7. uhuh. (it's not me,its the medicine speaking.)
8. I love Fig 1.0 Minji is my little sister biatches.

Fig 1.0

After what seemed like an eon,i met up with the bbsg oldies today! Teri gave me my Map The Soul Book Album and i got my set of new bbsg tshirts. YAY!

Map The Soul book album is beyond amazing.Tablo,Tukutz,Mithra & my sexy samurai MYK are amazing. I read 3/4 of the book on the way back from city hall.For once,i didnt succumb to motion-reading dizzyness. probably because i was too immersed in what tablo had to say.It made me think about a lot of things.Things that would ironically,give me a headache if i thought about them normally.I read the english part's of course.I cant wait to slowly read the hangul parts.The original first-hand language is always better than the translated version (even if its translated by the almighty tablo) & i really like how hangul sounds when i read it with my still foreign sounding tongue.Sounds awkward and cautious.I know in essence the meaning is the same,but maybe because of all its formalities and different forms of speech hangul sounds more imperial (?) compared to english.All asian languages do. ah,I cant wait for the day i can truly appreciate hangul in its true form without the aid of the dictionary.After reading MTS,i want Pieces of you NOW! both versions please! I officially crown tablo as god of words,Mithra as the bear of poetry and Tukutz as the turntablist of my heart.HAHAHA.

the musician and the listener
if this is love between two strangers
watching each other from afar,
that rough burning moment
when you rush in
and kiss
is-

the show.

Tablo/Mapthesoul.

Hear me when i say that i will not die before going to a bigass Epik High or The Movement concert and feel all this creative magic live with my very own eyes and ears.
all those with me,HANDS UP!
(syifa,i know you are here.HAHAHA.)

ZA,NARI,NESSA,JONGX,TALLFRIEND&JOJO are going to korea today! zomg,so excited for them.here's hoping they'll get to see 2pm and jay's abs and actually how tall taec is. oh!and also for them to at least catch a glimpse of the ever-elusive,japan-debuting BigBang.*crosses fingers*


PREUNIVERSITYSEMINAR.
Fun people,Fun Lepaking,Fun Prisonbreak-ing.Not so fun presentations because half the time i had the biggest urge to give in to sleep and because i am officially allergic to LT25.(really) But all in all,i made really nice friends and had a blast staying alone for 5 days.(when you live in a house with 7 people,alone is good.) Am really proud of MJ'S Multimedia team.you guys are awesome and rad and ily!I also realise that i should really learn the difference between whats happening in my HEAD and whats happening in reality. (shakespeare dude,i am sorry for scaring the shirtshit out of you early in the morning T_T)
POST PREUSEM.
DRAMA-RELAPSE.okay,before you think im kidding again.IM NOT. im falling back into my watching dramas/movies nonstop stage! I havent done this since i started JC. T_T I guess the 5 months in jc didnt serve as an effective rehab then i would have hoped it'd be. T_T. so far,in 3 days ive watched

• Naked Kitchen -joojihoon is yummy. he's a druggie but that doesnt eradicate the yummy factor. Weird storyline but nice for the eyes. cinematics were pleasant.
  
• How to Keep my love - old school kmovie! cute & funny.
  
• A random episode of Soulmate - funlikecrack!
  
• &&&& THE ENTIRE SERIES OF MEI-CHAN'S BUTLER.(THATS 10 EPISODES IN 2 DAYS)

Mei-chan's butler is best!okay,not the best ive watched but definitely somewhere up there.Jap Dramas never dissappoint.i love how its funny and wacky with a weird but funny jap touch.Mei's classmates are freaking on crack.lol.i love them.especially Miruku-chan coz she's a jeaaanius!


LAZY TO UPDATE PROPERLY.WILL DO THAT LATER.

for now,I am effing annoyed.i dont really know EXACTLY why im annoyed.I think its a combination of a few factors of annoyance -fromthesamesource- that have been building up for the past 3 years.(HAH.FACTORS)but seriously,the most annoying thing is 1) it was ME that led this annoyance to start.ME! and my intrinsic need to verbal diarrhoea all the time. KARMA SUCKS. & 2) there is no possible way for the annoyance to subside because its now beyond my control.so the annoyance will just keep increasing and increasing until it finds some other thing to love.

WHHHHYYYYYY DDDD:
GAAAAAAAH.