I think im losing it,but in the most sane way possible.Im losing it,sanely? Yes, i am aware of the contradiction embodied in the statement.Its weird,i dont know how to explain it.I will try anyway.

It's like i know that my thoughts are going haywire and my thought process seems likes its jumping beyond rationality.I think about things or people that i should definitely not and absolutely must not think about.I cant control my thoughts anymore,it like some other being is controlling my brain.I imagine this 'being' to be a plankton-like creature sitting in the centre of my brain with a remote control;jumbling all my thoughts together like it was his giant veiny-playground.the plankton-like creature laughs evily when it succeeds in making me think the way it wants to.I can hear its laughter,its mocking me and i feel like squeezing it dry.
thus i conclude that because i partially have no more control of my thoughts,i am losing it.going crazy.the mad-woman in the attic.GILA.미쳤어.

The sane part -- Although my thoughts run wild like toddlers with too much sugar,i seem to be retain normality(normal by my standards anyway) in reality.The thoughts in my mind are not transferred out of my mouth or through my actions.Its all very puzzling.
This leads me to believe that i really am turning crazy.

HOW D:? that being said,even if i turn crazy,its good-crazy right? since technically,my thoughts torment nobody but myself? hmmm. yes yes. i guess there are positives in this!
like uhmm...who else has a micro-organism in their brains?
hopefully the evil plankton does not misplace or burn the thought-file where i save all the things i need for promos,as it is the file's arent anywhere complete or full T__T.