To the Fan-gods/Fan -Volturi/Fan - Dumbledore (Whatever floats your boat),

2009 has been a somewhat dissapointing year for kpop. I think this has to do with many sad events such as the lack of Big Bang,the Wondergirls being shipped to the US (and the massacre of 'Nobody' through it being too popular - for too long),GD's heartbreaker album, the tragic lost of Jay from 2pm and of course the fan drama that followed all year round. The thing is,within the year I have seen your light! (For that I thank you.) I could look past these disappointments rather easily because I cared less. Caring less really opened my eyes to another level of fandom. A level where I could like the people and music that I liked and hate the people and music that I hated without getting affected by fan drama and all the scary fan wars. May all the newb fangirls see the same light that I did. Not to belittle anyone but,there's so much we can do. We're fans. (not lawyers or extremists or flash mobists or part of the mob or even terrorists,for that matter.)

But enough of my evolution in the fangirl hierarchy. I want to tell you that I have found real gems amidst the dark clouds this year. Gems like Dong Young Bae - who shines brighter than ever. Park Gahee,from After School is another one of kpop's secret weapons that have been unleashed this year. She is amazing,beyond words! The group B2ST (minus hyunseng) and singers like Lyn and Kim Tae Woo all made the year brighter. This year,I learnt that the best stars shine quietly in the corner. They dont need big blonde hair or crazy pyrocrastic stage lights or scandals or gimmicks. Naturally,they shine on their own. Without any artificial help.For opening my eyes to these gems,I thank you.

When fandom was at its worst and the kpop world was too unbearable to look or listen too,I could always lean on the muscial geniuses of hiphop that provided musical nutrition to my itunes.Epik,Dynamic Duo,Leessang,Tiger JK,Dok2 and the rest of The Movement were the much needed comfort crew this year. Yes,at times they were violent and vulgar - but they were (for lack of a better word) 'dopezxzx' nontheless. For leading me to this comforting road when kpop was a trainwreck - I give my thanks.

Also,I want to tell you that I miss my fangirl buddies. This year was tough on everyone and I miss the spazz sessions and crazy outings we had the year before. I pray that we'll see much more of each other next year. BBSG,I miss us! (Special shouts to Syifa,my gag buddy! - WE NEED TO MEETUP,PRONTO!)

I predict that next year will be tough for all of us. (For me especially) May Bigbang come back and fill this empty void in my soul.May kpop continue to be a friend and not a foe. And if it does become a foe,may we part beautifully.

Yours,
Su.